First big wedding of 2013 for my business. Packed and sold my first home & moved into my new apartment.
But it's done. I did it. I made it through what i was deeming the hardest month this year for me! Back at work after 4 days off work for the move and my colleagues all think i look so happy :) and i FEEL so happy!
My apartment- all be it still half in boxes- is looking beautiful. It's so big for me that i forget where i am some times!
I get to wake up looking at the sunrise from the comfort of my pillow & doona... and i smile, and im happy and ready for what the works will throw at me!
It wasn't an easy 5 months getting to this point. it's been hard. really hard. for the most part i've put on a happy face, but pain is deep, and it runs true. It's also not over... i feel that sense of loss frequently, and i will for a long time to come.
On a positive note- over this stressful time , when i've not eaten as great as i could of, i've not gained weight! it means even under pressure.. I'VE GOT THIS! :)
My Healing has only just begun, there is much excitement ahead, things to learn, new people to meet, and many a new leaf to turn. But right now it feels good.
My next adventure (via my 34th birthday) is a trip to Brisbane for the Emazon- Stand your ground 4 day convention. It's going to be the place i learn more about who i am, who I'm going to be and where i've come from to get to this point. I'm excited to come home after those 4 days, fitter, healthier of mind, and with plans for my future spirit.
These 4 days are going to be all about me, and no-one else. It's a TOTALLY selfish experience ! I'll put my self first on all levels... So be warned- don't expect much from me 18-23rd April.... get your birthday wishes in early people :)
When i return from Brisbane, i expect I'll be a force to be reckoned with, a changed (or changing) woman of mind and spirit! (to add to the ever changing body)
Whats' more in the past 5 months my friendships have grown. Those close to me that have been supportive- you know who you are, i love and adore each and everyone of you.
And to Bec, for our mutual understanding and acceptance of each others changes, needs and growths. I'm so proud of us both! We've come so far- the only way is up Pickle- and I'm excited for us !! xx
So, this is where I'm at. an exciting place in my life, moving forward and not looking back.
Let the new leaf adventures begin!
:)
